I first met Jackie working at the Carmike 10 movie theater in the summer of 2004. While we weren't friends immediately, we eventually came to be friends as part of a small group that worked at the theater. Over the years, as she went through 2 colleges, we remained friends and became closer despite the distance, as I remained in Knoxville or Oak Ridge during this time. When she graduated and moved back to Knoxville, we became ever closer and really began to develop into "best friends" type roles before finally becoming a couple. During the years, I had asked Jackie out several times, but was always refused. You'd have to ask her for all the reasons, as I didn't always ask. Some were obvious, like bad timing due to "relationship issues" I wasn't completely aware of. While I wanted more than friendship with her, I cherished her friendship far too much to ever let those denials for a date stand in the way. Amazingly, these moments were never awkward and never affected our friendship in any adverse way. I like to think it was "meant to be", but it's probably that we're just both too stubborn to let it affect things. In some ways, it may have strengethened our friendship, even. Then, just after Christmas in 2017, during a conversation, Jackie asked me "Do you ever still think about us?" and that began a whirlwind of emotions, confusion, and eventually actually going on a date 2 weeks later. I will never in my life forget that night or the look on her face as she asked me that question. It was one of those moments that you know is important and significant as it happens, but you don't realize how pivotal a moment in life it was, until later. |