WOW!  I was sooooo not planning on this wonderful man in my life!  I had literally given up on mankind.  My days were spent at work, then the gym, then indie film work, then falling into bed and hit repeat each morning.  Weekends were spent with my friends ... brunch, beaches, concerts, dancing and just having fun! Men were a pleasant diversion but nothing more.  

I had met Alex on an indie film I helped produce.  I thought he was good looking but he was just another one of the cast.  I was working... so it was all business. During the filming I managed the casting call sheets and interacted with the cast regularly so as a result I was connected with them all on FaceBook and other social media sites to stay in touch and keep them updated on the film.  After the film wrapped up I saw that Alex posted on his FB page that he was opening up his life to love and happiness.  He shared it in such an open and transparent way I was super impressed; yet still maintained the viewpoint of "how nice for him" while maintaining my view that that idea was not for me.  Because I found his transparency so impressive I wrote off a quick comment congratulating him and encouraging him to stay open and transparent for the right woman.  

After my encouraging comment to Alex he then started communicating with me regularly.  Little messages and quips throughout my work day.  It was fun and entertaining.  When he got flirtatious I played along but still had no interest in a relationship.  When he asked me out... I flat out said NO.  He asked why and I answered "we are on different journey's in life".  I will never forget his reply "aren't we all?"  I remember sitting there looking at that answer for a long time.  I was floored.  Yes we all are... but what did that mean to me?  What did that mean for dating him?  He stayed persistent.  I remember telling him I had to get my work done and leave for the gym and I would call him when I left and was on my way.  I called and ended up sitting for a hour in the gym parking lot talking.  By the end we agreed to meet up.

After our first date I remember telling him half way through the evening that I was really surprised by the unique connection I felt to him.  Normally on dates there are those first awkward hours of things like... if I bumped the guys arm would he think that meant I wanted to hold hands, etc.  All the little uncomfortable nuances that go along with dating and being in an intimate setting with someone you really do not know very well.  Instead I felt as though I had been friends with this man for years.  As though we had already spent time getting to know each other and I was simply spending time with a long lost friend.  It was the most unusual experience I have ever had and laid the foundation for what was going to turn into an amazing relationship!

Have you ever been hungry for something but not been quite sure what it is you wanted?  That is the place I was in after coming out of a long term of darkness. After a series of failed relationships, pining for the wrong people, and too much time alone, I realized I was projecting a self image that was extremely negative and unattractive.  I equate it to standing in a dark tunnel with light at either end but I am in the cold shadows.  After I made the decision to let go of my angst and step out of the darkness I was overcome with a feeling of radiant positivity. It is a really nice thing to stand in the light!  I was glowing and deliriously happy.  That is when I realized I was truly ready to love again. My heart was humming and my tummy started to growl. I then said my prayers to deliver unto me the perfect person; as I clearly had no clue.

I had briefly met Kimra while working on a film project.  Being always professional our work ethic was business as usual.  Except for one moment... on an early hot and sunny morning shoot, Kimra was passing out cool wet rags to the cast and crew.  For a moment she leaned her head on my back and a wave of electricity rippled through me.  Later after the project ended we began to communicate through social media... God bless Facebook!  I would put up goofy/cool/inspirational posts and she would respond keenly.  I couldn't get her out of my head... she was attractive, funny, smart and sexy.  Quite honestly that was all I knew about her; and I was hungry for more.  I thought, "Could I date this woman?  Is it possible?  Is she out of my league?"  Like standing on the ledge of a bungy jump, I decided to leap!

Our first dates were exhilarating!  Lots of laughs, unexpectedly seeing eye to eye on every issue, and most of all FUN!  She got me, more than anyone had in as far back as I could remember.  Finally my heart was beginning to feel satisfied.